I am in a dark place. My heart is with you but my body and soul are trapped here. All I want is to be with you again. You were the only person in my life that never hurt me. In any way. I miss you so much I feel physical pain. I never imagined it would be this hard to lose someone. My heart is broken, my mind in turmoil. Why did you have to leave me? Yet I know, in my rational thoughts that if you were here you would be suffering. No longer the dad I grew up with and loved so much. In pain, fighting daily to get through to the next. Maybe what we called your dark place was the only light in your life. I will never know. I'm tortured by thoughts of your last moments. I hope you weren't scared. It kills me that you were alone. No one should die alone. I will never get over that fact. Ever. I'm struggling to function. I'd give my life for one more day with you, as you were, happy, healthy, alive...... I love you, so very, very much. R.I.P xxx💔❤️