14 long years without you dad. It hasn't got easier. It's even worse now Nan has gone too. I hope you are all together wherever you are, Nan and Grandad, you, Ted and Les. I miss you so much Dad.
Dawn
4th July 2021
I am in a dark place. My heart is with you but my body and soul are trapped here. All I want is to be with you again. You were the only person in my life that never hurt me. In any way. I miss you so much I feel physical pain. I never imagined it would be this hard to lose someone. My heart is broken, my mind in turmoil. Why did you have to leave me? Yet I know, in my rational thoughts that if you were here you would be suffering. No longer the dad I grew up with and loved so much. In pain, fighting daily to get through to the next. Maybe what we called your dark place was the only light in your life. I will never know. I'm tortured by thoughts of your last moments. I hope you weren't scared. It kills me that you were alone. No one should die alone. I will never get over that fact. Ever. I'm struggling to function. I'd give my life for one more day with you, as you were, happy, healthy, alive......
I love you, so very, very much. R.I.P xxx💔❤️
Dawn
14th May 2016
It's been 8 long and painful years and I still miss you as much now as I did in the early days. My family has expanded and all of my girls know about "grandad up in the clouds" even though 2 of them have never had the pleasure of meeting you! I love you so very much, I hope wherever you are you are at peace and you stop by every now and then to check we're doing ok. Look out for your balloon as always. R.I.P pops xxxxxxxxx
Dawn
25th June 2015